Does anyone mind if I take a minute to vent about something totally non-RP related? Sometimes it's just easier to vent to people you don't know, y'know? Feel free to just ignore this. I just need to like "write out" my feelings, I guess haha. And I can't even post about it on Facebook or anything because it's supposed to be hush-hush. Right now the only people who know are my parents, boyfriend, and best friend.
Anyway, today I found out that they're cutting the budget for the Spanish program in the District where I teach, so I'm being laid-off. End of the school year, I won't have a teaching job anymore.
I just got this job in August... Graduated from college in May. It was SO tough for me to find a teaching job, and I was overjoyed when I did. I was feeling so discouraged because I applied to at least 6 jobs, only heard back from 2, and ended up getting only one job offer... a part-time Elementary School position. I didn't even think I wanted to teach that age group, but I ended up falling in love with it. The part-time thing sucked for sure, but I was confident that there would be opportunity for me to grow in this district and be bumped-up to full time within a couple years.
But nope, they decided to fluffing take away my job. I know that it's just a budget thing and has nothing to do with me, but there are literally no words to describe how heartbreaking and discouraging this is. I found out 2 hours ago and I've been sobbing my eyes out on and off ever since. I feel like the past several months of teaching was so pointless. Why did I even accept this job in the first place? Why waste my time?
I hate life so much right now. I can't even explain how I feel. And I can't even talk to any of my friends or colleagues at work about it until the end of next week because it hasn't "gone public" yet, and other people's jobs are being affected too.
I'm so mad and upset and... UGH. So yeah, there is my random venting
I'm not looking for pity or sympathy (that will actually probably make me feel worse, to be honest... I hate having people feel bad for me), I just needed to get all those feelings out there.
So yeah... I'll probably be doing a lot of posting tonight, and Skyrim-ing. I need an escape from the real world right now for sure. Because it sucks ASS.
jobs arent esy to hold down these days